Very random thoughts on emptiness and loneliness – 25.04.15

The more time passes, the more I understand how hard it actually is to move on. At the very beginning I thought that getting rid of the problem was the solution – everything was beautiful, I was fine and all the things seemed actually perfect. I was serene as no one else in this world, but all of a sudden, everything collapsed again.

The first 3 months after finally leaving the bad situation I was living into, I thought everything was finally over. Then I realized what actually happened and why and now I feel just like before, maybe just a little bit better.

I cannot help feeling angry, incredibly angry. I’m realizing only now how deep I was hurted in these years, expecially the last two. It’s like I’ve lost everything and now I don’t know how to move on. I can only feel emptiness inside of me and it’s like I cannot fill it anymore. I feel far from who I actually am, I cannot feel the contact anymore. And I’m in desperate need to understand if it is ever going to change.

I don’t have anyone to talk about. I’m not able anymore to open up about what I have inside. It’s like nobody cares and who does, just doesn’t know what to say. Even my mom, who always has something to say right now doesn’t know what to tell me. There is nothing new to add, it’s true. It’s over and I should just forget it. But I can’t.

I’m suffering to the point I cannot even feel God anymore. I know there’s a reason to all that’s happened – there’s always one – but at the moment I just don’t get where the plan is going to lead me.

I just feel incredibly alone and don’t know what to do. Maybe just have a little more patience.. as always.

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Wolf Audio Devices || Artiglio – VIDEO REVIEW

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A screen from the first video review I recorded for Italian Guitar Tube.
In this video you can hear a sample of the new overdrive/booster by Wolf Audio Devices.

You can see the video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFXDLgN0Pag

ITALIAN GUITAR TUBE: http://italianguitartube.com/

ITG on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/italianguitartube?fref=nf

WOLF AUDIO DEVICES: http://wolfaudiodevices.altervista.org

WAD on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/pages/Wolf-Audio-Devices/595174733927069

Video recorded with Nikon D800 body, AF-S Nikkor 50mm 1:1.8 G lens and Manfrotto Compact Series Tripod

CIRCLE – Simone Gison’s solo EP

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I am happy to show you the artwork I designed and created for Simone Gison’s solo EP, Circle, fully written and home recorded by him.

I decided to create a minimalist but yet psychedelic artwork in order to well represent the music he has written.

Circle is a 12 minutes EP that comes in a single suite: its parts were recorded in order to form, as the name says, a circle – its end and begin are the same, so it can also play infinitely, without recognising where it starts and where it ends, just like a real circle.

If you are so into prog, it is definitely worth a listen.
You can check it out here:

Artwork created by Immacolata Melillo with Photoshop Elements 6.0